I am so unsure which book to touch right now. Did around 10 questions of vectors. Vectors are something that I fear the most in A2 and I'm overcoming it slowly. Gonna prove that vectors is not a fear for me.
I had been on a roller coaster emotion last few days. Being lied by a friend whom I trust really hurts eh. nah, it didn't really hurt. probably I'm strong enough. Its pretty expected la.
Turning into a cina moi + 38 mode:
I had never meet someone so 'jin kak', seriously lo. Somemore become the narrator, director and actor for the whole show tim.
Admire or like a people, just admit la, why want to do those 'jin kak' act and act innocent all the time? Sometimes I have a doubt whether you're a man or not. Do those tiny little 'bei pei' things. Somemore assume me as a domino, he's the one who make me fall and run to the end and bring me up again. lame dou sei.
Somemore act all noble and say 'couldn't bare to see me get all hurt from all these anymore, would do anything to make me happy.(bulu roma meremang) Infact, he's the one who created all these and blame the fault to another innocent person.
The funniest thing is say wanna get me diamonds. (lol).
and the most surprising thing is when he finally admitted that he is the one who cause those chaos and lies, you don't expect a girl(esp me) to forgive you there and then. If I don't, you call this friendship an end.
Yes, to be frank, I can't. Let this friendship end. (which it did). It took me 10 years to realise the value of true friend. Its a long time I know.
The most beh tahan thing is you act all innocent and say no regrets tim.
iysh iysh, I don't know how come i know someone like that one lor. seriously. Somemore think that you'll never wrong.
I don't care lah whether you read this or not. mmg intended to remind you pls don't think you're so noble lor.
Cina moi mode turned off.
Hahaha. It sounds so syok sendiri. but I don't care, call me mean or whatever you want. I'm not the nerd and straight girl you know anymore. all thanks to you.
Sigh. back to my books.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Will not be blogging anytime soon unless I'm stressed up or something like that till the end of A2.
Realised the true value of friendship. I cannot imagine someone whom I trust so much misused the trust I gave and in turn blame me back for the fault he made. Keep the details la. Not going to tell it here anyway. Nothing juicy.
Irene told me that if that were to happen to her, she would slap the person immediately. Yes, it sounds harsh, and she did the right decision last time. Glad that we realised it before its too late.
P:S. If you come across this blog. Please do not play miss call in the wee hours in the morning. Its annoying.
List after A2.
. endless shopping trips with a few besties
. settle the stuffs for IELTS
. A few local trip. (P:S. Pangkor gang, the trip's this year not on?)
. maybe a month part time in kindergarden before uni starts
. Err, to be added later.
Nerd mode continues.
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Sunday, October 11, 2009
Sunday, October 11, 2009 08:24 pm (callie_hor)
How far do you trust first impression?
I don't know. I believe that I should have trust the first impression we made on a person.
But not some people whom you think that its so trustable untul you tell everything to that particular person.
Its heartbreaking when your best friend just make use of the trust you gave and tell you the biggest lie that you can ever expect. Bigger than ever. Just blame the hormones.
Jealously, hormones playing its rule.
I'm not sad. Or I am. The timing's just not right. Thats all.
P:S. I never trust you anymore.
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Friday, October 09, 2009
Friday, October 09, 2009 07:29 pm (callie_hor)
Damn, A2's around the corner and its like some sort a curse I tell you. Before AS, I was infected with conjunctivitis with greenish mucus coming out from my eyes constantly. And yes, my eyes were glued every single morning which is darn gross.
And now, thanks to don't know what's wrong, swelling on my lower eyelid. For literally no reason. Maybe insect bite? I dunno, its darn annoying and itchy. But all thanks to some chloramphenicol antibiotic ointment, it actually works like magic I tell you, ermm, 6 hours and the swell reduces half the size?
Sometimes I wish I'm slightly richer. Well, call me realistic la, but money is the root of evil but who could even survive without sufficient money?
How I wish I had the moolahs for a Louis Vuitton bag, Gucci shoes and versace wallet?
Lol. too early to dream, but I'm telling myself that I would have at least one of each designer brands in 10 years time from now?
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Wednesday, October 07, 2009
Wednesday, October 07, 2009 11:43 pm (callie_hor)
Edited: I just don't get why our 1 decade friendship is ruined just like that.
Sometimes I wish
..I can read minds. But not being able to read your mind is the fun thing.
..you actually lied about the truth. (which i don't know whether you lied or not)
..I made the right choice to trust you as a reliable friend of mine.
..I didn't take the first step.
..I could just dislike you and don't even bother to care.
..I could be stronger.
..you could tell me the truth.
..I am a little smarter. Just a tinnyy little bit more.
..I am a guy.
..I could spend less.
..I could turn the time back.
..I made the right choice to trust you as my best friend.
Hahahahaha
Ahh, I'm not emo, but I'm fustrated?
Pretty proud that I am being able to open durian by myself? Yes, I think I can do things that most guy is able to do. Errr,
-paint the wall
-hammering job
-become kuli(lol)
-play football(does it count ah)
I dunno. I feel pretty random now.=D
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Monday, October 05, 2009
Monday, October 05, 2009 11:36 pm (callie_hor)
Nerd mode offcially activiated now. I had been slacking pretty much since AS. How I wish I could revert time back to sem 3.
Mocks had been pretty okay lah. maths is enough to show I'm unprepared. I'm lazy, silly mistakes. Need to overcome my fear on vectors. i see vectors, brain blank kao. Sei mou.
Lotsa things to swallow for bio and chem. Speciation la, inbreeding depression la. Aih.
I'm seriously having depression now. Badly.
Damn. I'm emo.
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